At first, no lie, I almost had a nervous breakdown.
I wanted to leave.
Only a few hours before the show, I escaped and sat outside the lobby, just munching on the bag of free sample protein bars they gave to all competitors.
How could I drag my sorry butt onto the stage, in an itty bitty bikini, in front of so many strangers, surrounded by so many girls who were so much more fitter, firmer, more tones, etc etc than ME?!
Well... so I thought...
After my teammates calmed my nerves (and I realized I had already shelled out so much time and money to even get THIS far), I thought what the hey... and if I do poorly, I can always look back at it and laugh.
However, lucky enough for me, there was no laughing going on that night...
I ended up taking home 5th!
(Considering they onloy give prizes up to 5th, I had literally JUST made it!! But... nonetheless I made it!!)
It was all worth it.
In fact, I even think I could do it again!
Actually, I would do it again, if it wasn't because I know I'll be travelling out of country so soon...
It's gonna really suck to leave my team.
I had just come this far, and now that I have the initial experience, I'm really looking forward to going at it again and working out the kinks.
Maybe next time I'll place 3rd...
and then 2nd....
and ultimately.....................
but first!!!!............
I JUST HAD TO PIG OUT FOR AT LEAST ONE NIGHT!!
It's ok.... I'll eat healthy again tomorrow... ;)
(Hey I deserved it!)